Wealth is of the heart & mind - not the pocket.

Money has always been a touchy issue for me. Whether it'd be talking about it, dealing with it, or just making it. Often times I just wish that I could some day buy a lotto ticket, put in my lucky numbers, & then later that night when I'm watching the 11 o'clock news, I'd somehow match them up from the TV screen onto this flimsy, pink paper - making me millions of dollars richer, not to mention being set for LIFE. 

I have a swirl of mixed feelings when it comes to being looted. You're always a step ahead of the game financially, you make the most of materialistic lust, & let's face it - you get what you want. I know it's a really bad stereotype to be having this perspective, but majority of the time it's true. I'll even openly admit that it's the envy in me that's causing me to feel this way, but at the same time I also take pride in not being able to grow up lavishly. It gives me a sense of who I am, how I was brought up, & what it's molded me into. I appreciate the things that I've worked hard for & find value in miniscule ways. I would rather have that feeling of satisfaction from earning something with money that I stacked myself, as oppose to it being handed to me an a silver plate.

It's funny, because at work we always ask ridiculous questions dealing with money. For your entertainment, I present to you a typical conversation in our employee break room:

Larry: For a million dollars, would you punch your mother in the mouth?

Me: ...Yes, because I'd just use my money to pay for her medical bills.

Larry: Okay so for 2 million, would you punch her with brass knuckles on?

Me: NO, CAUSE YOU CAN'T BUY BACK YOUR MOM'S RESPECT FOR YOU.

- LMAO.

Yeah, it gets pretty nasty. Other ones that I've heard around the floor go something like, "Would you let Michael Jackson shit in your mouth", or "Would you pick a booger out of George Bush's nose with your tongue", & just crazy shit like that. Believe me, it's better in person.

But other than that, I often ask myself questions dealing with money. If I were to be financially comfortable, would I still have the same morals? Would I value things like the way I do now? Would money get to my head, making me just another Paris Hilton? I highly doubt any of it, but it gives me the heebie jeebies just thinking about it.

Fk millionaire, where I'm at I'm talking Billionaire.. Boys Club, that is. (How fking gay was that? Don't remind me.) The Nyc store is releasing some new stuff this Saturday, & Tony's going to be in Soho early for the release. Hopefully I'll get to run into him & check it out, but I haaate my 2-11pm shift. :(

Fuego, too bad it just looks pretty (for me at least). But no lie, I'd definitely want to buy a classic logo BBC shirt. I'd have no idea when I'd wear it though, most likely around the house & to sleep in, HAHA. Damn my undying love for Pharrell.