I'm convinced more & more each day that we're all put into limits of our lifestyle. Although I can't complain about the situation I'm in, I've always been the one to strive for something more if I truly believed there was something out there with greater opportunity. I hate how stubborn I am to when it comes to terms of forcing myself to be content, when I'm clearly not. Perfect example, quitting jobs that I grow to dislike.
Pushing limits give me a guilty conscious - why can't I settle & be thankful for the things provided, instead of being a brat & wanting more?
Queensborough has lost my interest completely, & the Spring semester hasn't even finished. The negative connotation people put on community colleges has seeped into my brain, which led to me slacking off. That, & an unnecessarily late Spring break. I just wish the next semester will be quick & painless, so I can be on my way to transferring out - where exactly, I'm not too sure yet. This is another perfect example. I'm grateful for the fact that my mom is putting me through school, but looking at the tired & gloomy campus makes me feel the same way - tired & gloomy.
There's got to be more to life than this. I need to make moves, & I've got to pick up the pace. Summer, where you at?
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My first semester at QCC I enjoyed. It was far easier than FIT, my GPA even jumped 3 points! But this semester I have lost all motivation. Even in my dance classes. Me, not feeling good in dance? Crazy!
The campus is pretty gloomy, and I feel like I am 'too cool' for the people there. I don't mean that in a mean way, but I think you know what I mean. There is just better places to go. I'm going back to FIT, well I reapplied for a BA program. Just waiting ot hear from them...
The late break was crazy, cause now I'm worse than before. Maybe you didnt quit that sucky job cause you needed money? Thats why I'm still there :(
But I feel you.
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