I don't know why I always subject myself to more stress than I already juggle. & In retrospect, these things all together don't even seem too stressful at all - but the fact that I let things build up emotionally in me, that's when it takes a toll on my system. I put effort into getting things done around the house - playing "substitute mom" is an everyday ritual to me. I maintain the apartment while my mom is in Jersey City working, so that when she's home & exhausted from what the day has brought her she has less things to worry about. An empty sink & dish rack. A maintained living room. Making sure there's cooked rice for dinner. Having the place all tidied up & presentable, because coming home to a clean house does wonders on the stress meter - trust me, it's a proven theory.
A common situation I find myself getting all worked up for is the dishes. We've established that it's understood that we take turns in washing random dishes that get left in the sink. At times I dump my plates & ditch, but every now & then I gather everything up & wash them. Take note, I do the dishes out of the goodness of my heart (haha, I couldn't find a better way to put it). Kuya & Karryn on the other hand, only start to get off their butts & move after being told to do so. That's the things that bothers me the most - you complain about always being nagged at, yet you do nothing to change or make the situation better. Or not even that, why not do something around the house to help alleviate the stress for mom? Instead of being royalty & expecting life to hand you things on a silver plate, why not earn something for yourself?
FK THIS. It's amazing how my temper went from 0 to 60 in a matter of 2 paragraphs writing this. There's just too much on my plate for any of this shit to make sense.
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I feel you yo, I do the same shit arnd my house and yet my mom stil yells at me at times but hey i jst swallow it jst so i wouldnt add on 2 her stress. I always saw u as the responsible 1,dnt get me wrong i see rob like that 2 but i kno he can b a lazy ass, haha. jst take this as a life lesson i guess, simple things like washing dishes can mean a lot and being able 2 actually doing something simple will set u up 4 doing more complicated tasks in life. u got this grl, hey, im sure ur mom appreciates everything that ur doing.
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