Front.

I front so hard by pushing people away during times of need, so it appears like I have everything under control -- or more times than others, make it seem like I could really give a fk less. But in actuality, it's some sick & twisted defense mechanism I have going on with myself that does nothing to benefit me. People have good intentions, yet I can't bring myself to take it with a grain of salt & acknowledge it for what it is. Instead, I make shit harder to handle, & no one will ever know until the time comes where I just explode.

I need to stop trying to manage everything single-handedly, like I'm the only one capable of doing right by themself.
I need to stop worrying so much about the content of others & just look out for me.

I need to start making fkin' moves.



Truth hurts, but it ain't a lie.