The Company

Sooo dooope. If only I could be half the shit they are. Why are all the sexy people from California? I swear, it's the water they're drinking or something..

Myspace About Me

Zero tolerance for bullshit & the people that bring it. One of the last females left with a genuine personality. People have a hard time determining my ethnicity. Contains an obnoxiously contagious laugh. If patience was rewarded, I'd have a trophy room filled. Nyc born& raised with a twist of Chicago. Asshole to an extent. Blunt as hell that'll leave you wondering what hit you. Weakness for the Knicks, cars, fashion, & hip-hop. Deep conversations are best engaged sitting on stoops at 2AM. Work hard, lounge harder.


Everything I want, I gots it.

I crack myself up - yet I still hold true to these words.

Stuck Off the Realness.

& I ain't talking no Mobb Deep lyrics, but just the literal meaning of it. I feel stuck - but that's not necessarily a positive or a negative. It's a day by day process of routine & repetition.

Work is tiring me out - I had no idea I signed up for little side jobs & staying hours after my scheduled shift has ended, & I have so many mixed feelings towards the whole thing. The frequency of my schedule is amazing, working barely 3 days a week leaving me with a lot of free time - but it doesn't pay shit. I go through half of my paycheck in a matter of 3 days, & it's not like I'm even blowing it all off senselessly. My hourly pay just doesn't suffice to my lifestyle. Then again, who are we kidding here - it's not a job unless you complain about it.

I just finished watching the latest episode of Jon & Kate plus 8, & my heart sincerely goes out to that family - especially the kids. I can imagine how difficult it is to transition from what they grew so accustomed to. A loving family, fame & wealth, & overall just a good bond between parents & siblings. It scares me & breaks my heart to see such a good thing fall apart. But I'm not one to talk when it comes to that.

It's only going to be Tuesday tmrw & I'm already wanting the week to be over & done with. Monday Kuya is planning on getting another tatt ink'd on his back, & I'm seriously contemplating whether to go with him since I've been wanting another one. But of course, that all depends on how the cash flow's coming in.

This was a useless update, but whadaeff. I been slackin', I know.

Random Fact #5

I miss taking random naps in the middle of the day with you.

Rain rain, go away.

Actually, I'm pretty content for the rest of the night. Bum ass Monday, but for once I'm not complaining. Time to catch up on some "me time", aka cleaning, loungin', & cooking. (:

Random Fact #4

I'm horrible at saving money.

Patience

This was my fking jam back in Summer '06. Love the vibe of this nigga, I'm glad I dug up some throwies. Helps out a lot, considering I woke up in a shitty mood -- & it's only 1130AM.

Damn, so I was supposed to hit up the post office w/ my Mom to take care of this whole passport business.. Tell me how it's going to cost me $160 to renew it, PLUS the fee of putting that shit on express since I'm leaving in July. Putting a deep hole in our pockets, but you got'a do what you got'a do, right? This past week I been stressing about money issues, more than usual. I got that stupid parking ticket (RECKLESS), the deductible for my new Blackberry (still need to get on that), paying this passport fee, & on top of all that saving for my plane ticket + spending money. I'm trying not to let it overwhelm me, but it's pretty damn evident that my lifestyle is too expensive for my hourly salary. I'm not getting paid enough, fk.

I kind of wnna fast forward to July already, I hate that area of gray between points A & B. Bahamas loungin' with boyfriend, living it up over there & turning 19. Legal drinking age, what's goooooood with that. I'm hyped, but got'a be patient. Shoot, I'm everything that defines patient.

Truth.